Awww.....

Apparently she missed the memo that she is a water dog. She was not too happy about this bath. On another note....she smells like oatmeal. :)

still bored in kentucky....

In no particular order....yes, I even scrapped about our sweet little turtle visitor. I still think of him when I drive by the corner where he was let go. I hope he/she is still happy and healthy.

These are a few of the pages I've worked on lately. I've actually had them done for awhile (except the last one) but hadn't posted them yet.

I work tonight. It has been good to get back to work for short amounts of time. It keeps my mind occupied and makes things feel like they are somewhat back to normal. I am starting to feel better, even though there are days I feel really good and others where I feel like I am totally exhausted.

My sister reminds me all the time that it is probably due to the fact that even long before I had my surgery I wasn't feeling 100% anyway. Which is true. I was sick for a long time and didn't know it. Right now I am sure my 80 - 90% feeling better is much better than what I was before this all started.

Today I am missing Mike. A lot.

Dead ass bored in Kentucky....

What on earth is she doing?

I was looking for a date on a photo earlier today and came across this folder from a day that we went to the park back in March. These photos made me laugh. I remember this day...

Trevor was upset that he was spun off the merry go round thing and had walked off to sit. Megan was in one of her "I'm an annoying big sister and bigger than you" moods and was going to poke at Trevor until he either laughed or snapped. So she was trying to be inconspicuous and use camouflage of a dead tree branch. Brilliant. Nobody knew that big stick was moving!!



Not much going on today. Trevor came home from an overnight field trip, Megan is bummed it's Friday (she likes school more than home apparently!) and Matthew isn't home yet.

Tonight is taco and tostada night.

Happy weekend!

Wednesday. Want to know what you're playing for?

I love Survivor. I mean....I LOOOOVE Survivor. I watched the first season when I was pregnant with Trevor and I remember hoping that the hospital timing wouldn't interfere with the next Thursday's episode. Thankfully, it did not and I remember spending the last few weeks of that season with my little boy Trevor on my shoulder sleeping while I heard Jeff snuff out somebody else's torch and say, "The tribe has spoken."

Now Trevor is 10, and sure enough we still watch this together. Jeff....how we've missed you. Welcome back. A new season. We can breathe again.

(Cool Jeff Probst trivia here....when we lived in Scottsdale his parents lived about a mile away from us. That's my six degrees of separation story....survivor edition.)

I'm trying to get Lisa to want to watch. The girl has no clue what she is missing.

The only thing is, Survivor has moved to Wednesday. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I mean, it's nice to not have to wait another day in the week for it, but it has been a Thursday staple for so long! It is going to take some getting used to. But for now.... I am giddy that when I get home from work tonight, I have it to watch.

post #777 and Copenhagen

I want to be sitting at the restaurant on the right.... eating outside, watching people and things go by. Mike is in Copenhagen right now, and took this photo. It looks like such a cool city.

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Well....there have been so many times I have sat down and started a post, only to save it in drafts and not publish it. Things have just been the same around here...not that it's a bad thing, just that it gets boring blogging about nothing at times. Or the opposite of there being so much that it stressed me out figuring out how to get it all down.

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Each time I would sit down and try to write something I'd feel pressure of trying to recap what has been going on. Just for myself really, because I do like to go back to read old posts every now and then when I'm feeling nostalgic or wondering what I was doing four years, five years, or even a year ago at the time. It's interesting just to see how much life has changed. It's no secret that we've been struggling a little since Mike's furlough, so my ideas about where I'd be at a certain point in my life aren't matching up with where we really are. So sometimes I do go back just as a reminder. A reminder that what I'm doing right now won't necessarily be what I'll be doing a year, four or five from NOW.

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So I figure instead of feeling the pressure to tell my story about the whole hospitalization stuff, Mike's work stuff....etc....I'm just going to start from today. Whew....There's been some big changes and adjustments and it wears me out thinking of how to get it down in writing. On a little side note, this makes post number 777 of my blog. That's kind of cool.

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I start work again tomorrow! I am really excited about it. It will be nice to get out and be in the world again. I missed a huge overnight Christmas set so it sounds like when I go back the store will be in Christmas mode. What happened to Halloween and why does Christmas keep bumping it out earlier and earlier each year? haha. Pumpkins, cute ghosts and reindeer....I can't get used to that.

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The weather here is wonderful. Leaves are already falling. I'm enjoying having my windows open again.

above: photo taken at the general store in Rabbit Hash, Kentucky. Really....nothing to do with my post other than I can't stand posting without some sort of visual at the top! But hey, the dog was sweet and maybe it does have to do with life right now since I seem to be doing an awful lot of resting...

Yesterday marked two occasions. First was our 20th Anniversary. Which is hard to believe because it doesn't feel like it's been that long but at the same I feel like we've been together our entire life! I'm a lucky girl to be married to my best friend.

Second was two week pre-op. I had an appointment to see my doctor earlier in the week and everything is healing fine. I am feeling better, but still have moments where I am sore and honestly the one thing that bothers me the most is every now and then there is a sharp pain that I almost feel like I have to do lamaze breathing to get through. It's normal, but uncomfortable none the less. Just a mark in the process of getting all of this healed and moving forward with finally feeling better all the way around.

I found a message board with people who had the same procedure done on or near the same date as me, and I read every body's updates. I seem to be in line with what everybody else is feeling too. Good news.

I feel so scattered. Which I hate. I'm limited to what I can do and it is making me crazy that I actually have the time off of work to where on a normal day I should be able to get quite a bit done! I even miss work. When my sister was out here helping out, we were talking about this crazy genetic work ethic that we seem to have. I actually enjoy it.... I mean, I'm a dork who doesn't really complain when I have to be there! So at least if I can't be feeling useful here at the house, I'd like to be feeling useful somewhere else! Only a couple more weeks though, and I can get back to routine.

Another huge life change coming up. Honestly, I feel like for the past couple of years I have been a pinball that keeps spastically going back and forth, hitting the bumpers inside the machine. The ones at the top where you don't know when the ball finally starts to roll downward for you to hit it back up again? That's me. lol. I don't see it as necessarily a bad thing, but still I'd really like to just have a set of plans in motion that I can breathe a bit for awhile, dig in and move forward. More on that later....this is the internet....and all that.

Which brings me back to scattered again. See? I feel very scattered right now. Good. But scattered!